The Secret Club

Why do I call it "The Secret Club"?

I guess it's not so secret anymore since here I am, read to divulge all information. Well, it's called "The Secret Club" simply because only a selected few can join. It is a means of defining one's status, though in this case, status is more defined in terms of title, rather than finances. and just like any other secret club, it would be no good if those excluded are not there to envy, or better yet, wonder what all this secrecy is all about.

Which leads to your next question:

"What is in this secret club?"

I am really proud to say that I belong to this secret club. In order for you to be one of us, you only need to "be" one thing: be pregnant! So if you're pregnant,"Welcome to the Club!", then. I'm pretty sure that you'll experience or you've experienced more or less everything that has been mentioned here. Keep posted for more information about getting pregnant

excruciating pain

i am so trying to find an outlet to let out all the emotions i kept hidden inside.. i dont know how long i could take all these.. and i hope that i would never run out of strength to fight for my life..

it's just that, no matter how hard i try to keep my life less complicated, it turns out to be more complicated than ever.. how do you get out of this predicament? where you got yourself knocked up by someone who does not love you anymore, but still kept on letting you feel that you are loved? i presume it's because im the vessel of his child, that im carrying his child, but doesnt he know that it's really eating me up and killing me so slowly?

the pain is already excruciating, to the point that i really really want to end my life..