i am so trying to find an outlet to let out all the emotions i kept hidden inside.. i dont know how long i could take all these.. and i hope that i would never run out of strength to fight for my life..
it's just that, no matter how hard i try to keep my life less complicated, it turns out to be more complicated than ever.. how do you get out of this predicament? where you got yourself knocked up by someone who does not love you anymore, but still kept on letting you feel that you are loved? i presume it's because im the vessel of his child, that im carrying his child, but doesnt he know that it's really eating me up and killing me so slowly?
the pain is already excruciating, to the point that i really really want to end my life..
